One of the most important things in my life is that I am faithful with all that God has given me. Also that I know God can do anything He chooses. Any limits that I see are from me! Many times, I know God CAN do anything He desires, but do I believe He will? I have watched many times in my life, God do things that amaze me and yet I know that I should not be surprised. It is His character. He loves to give His children good gifts. I never want to seek His hand, just fall in love with His heart. That is how I have found the difference between true faith and moments of faith. HIS faith is IN us ALL the time! Faith in us lasts only for a short time. Yes, I have faith in what His word says but only because I see HIS faithfulness. So I can LIVE in faith because of Him or I can just have it every once in a while but it only lasts as long as the moment because it is just MY faith. Faith has to be IN and THROUGH God!
As I am watching God work in our desperate situation these past few months, I have realized that without Him, I have no faith! I can choose to look to Him or choose to believe what my circumstances say but ultimately that faith comes from reading His word and seeing Him work. It's nothing in me. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1) God is the only one that can increase my faith through hope and things not seen. I don't have an answer right now on how our problems are going to work out. Everyone around me, would say that it is hopeless. I even say it is hopeless! HOWEVER, I have a God who says that," He cares for the birds of the air and they neither sow nor reap, how much more does He care for me..." Also, His word says He has plans to prosper us and to give us a hope and a future. MY faith would be that I could get out of these things by way of MY doing and even then, It would not help or if it did, it would be for a very short time! Faith in HIM says that I know I can not get out of this but I know that my God knows and is working for us! If He is for us, who can be against us? So no matter what the situation is that I am in, there is NOTHING that can happen that does not sift through His hand first. It does not mean that things won't get tough but if my faith is from Him, then I will know that all things work together for good for those who love Him. That is what His word says. I can come up with all kinds of solutions but I know that His way is best and better than my ideas! Our will would be the same as God's if we had all the facts! In other words, if we knew everything, and we don't, we would understand why we have to wait sometimes or why things don't work out in the way we choose! I have come to find out, that usually I have been wrong and thankful that things did not go my way!
Last night, I had been asked to take care of someones pet and watch their home while they were away. I did not want to tell her that we are losing our house and the time they wanted me to dog sit would be the week we may have to move. I began to talk and it just came out. We continued to talk and it was such a blessing to me! I got off of the phone and thanked God for using my trial to bless others. It is all worth it if other's can see God's character through my circumstances. How humbling! After something like that happens, I usually begin to be attacked. This morning I began to battle my thoughts. Not fear, just questioning. I stopped immediately and told God that I will continue to believe Him and that I will continue to trust Him. Later today, God blessed us AGAIN with another substantial amount of money. I have never asked for money! I just keep focusing on Him and having faith from Him that He can and WILL provide! He has chosen blessing us through money at this point in our situation.
I know I don't deserve all the blessings that God is giving! I feel so unworthy! I see my past mistakes and can't, for the life of me, understand why He sees fit to bless me in these ways! I just know that His love is beyond anything that I can imagine and He can do anything He wants to because He is God not because I am me! That is the faith I live for!
I will continue to follow Him and believe that His plan is best no matter what everything around me says. Please know that His faith is IN you also! He desires for us to trust Him the way that children trust their parents. My 2 year old does not wake up wondering if I will feed him or wash his clothes or where he will lay his head at night! He just lives and has "faith" that I will. He knows I always have! That is the hope we have in our heavenly Father.
We are His children and we can trust Him to supply ALL of our needs! I am so thankful for His provision and His timing! Rest knowing that He can be that in your life! Ask for His faith in you to grow! It will!