The one thing I have to remember is that even with all of these issues, I have a place to go. It's a resting place like no other. No vacation, drug, spa, calgon, "me" time, or a cup of "Joe" or even a Coke, could give me what just a few moments at Jesus feet can give me.
When my "issues" become a battle for me and my focus changes to what I have to give up, I remember that I need to once again, decide that I can't do this alone. This job of mothering is hard but I know that Jesus knows what it is like to deal with 12 selfish, greedy, self-centered people! I must see that I too am teaching "disciples" to go out and live a Godly life and I am the example that Christ was for HIS disciples when He walked this earth.
My disciples are watching and I hope that when my "issues" become an issue, I turn to the one who was PERFECT at discipiling HIS disciples!! That means minute by minute, I look to Him. I will always have "issues" but if I learn where my humanness leaves off and where His grace begins, (at the beginning), I will be equipped to lead my disciples to Him! What a job, but I am so thankful for it and even glad I have issues because I have learned the answer to resting in my Savior!
“This is my resting place forever; here I will dwell, for I have desired it.