Children born during one's youth are like arrows in a warrior's hand...blessed is the man whose quiver if full of them
Saturday, September 25, 2010
More than that...
I must admit sharing our wonderful news yesterday was a cleansing of my soul. AFter the week we had, I had to share something good. This baby is so much more then what it has been in the past. Don't get me wrong, EVERY ONE of my pregnancies has been a joy and a miracle in my eyes. But this time it is more than that.
On Wednesday my husband lost his job. I can't even begin to explain the emotions I have been through in the past couple of days. I know God is my provider and I know the verses in the bible that tell me He cares for me and I DO believe them. However, it has been very hard to feel anything but what my flesh feels right now. I have been fighting my fleshly fear and worries with scripture and He has been so faithful to bring my heart peace. But seeing my husband broken, our bank account with already nothing left, our babies faces and wondering where the food will come from and how we will pay our mortgage, does get to a person! I am to walk by FAITH and not by SIGHT. God has been reminding me of that hourly! I am not to concentrate on the things I listed above but to put my faith in the one who looks at that list and can erase all of it and turn it into good. My hope is never to be in my circumstances, but to be in HIM! I am believing that!
So, this baby is a promise of our future. That He is thinking ahead, that He has not left us and the guarantee that He does love us! What greater promise of a future than a child growing inside of you! I can't see this little one right now as it is being knit together in my womb, but I KNOW that it is there! I go by FAITH not SIGHT! God has used this little one and it is only 10 weeks old, to change me and mold me into more of what He desires me to be. TOTALLY dependent on Him! Not in a paycheck, my home, or my comforts! But to the one who has given me life and life to the little babe growing inside of me.
This is not easy for me to always "feel", but just as David did when running from King Saul, I know who my God is and I am determined to trust in Him and I will NOT be moved or shaken!
If you could please lift our family up in your prayers as my husband searches for a job and we learn to put all that we have in Christ's hands, I would appreciate it! I know it is through the valley's that we can appreciate the mountains, but it is sometimes very lonely in the valley! WE WILL climb up the mountain and take in the view again, but for today, we will trust Him in the valley too!