Monday, March 21, 2011

The truth...

There are many things I read and sometimes I feel plain guilty because it seems like everyone else has it all together.  Everyone except me that is!  Do you ever feel like that?  How can everyone else have spotless homes, every meal full of nutrition, planned school activities daily with LOADS of stimulation for all ages, schedules planned out to a tee and followed flawlessly... need I say more?  It can make me feel quite inadequate at times, to say the least!  Now, I know that nobody is perfect and everyone has things they exel at and things they struggle with but why at times, do I feel like I am the only on who has kids who argue, dust bunnies under my fridge (well, probably WAY more than dust bunnies), days where I just am plain tired and don't feel like teaching, let alone taking my kids on an "educational" field trip!  It may be just my last trimester pregnancy mode I am in and am just weary, but boy has it been hard on me feeling how "perfect"  everybody else's life is or appears to be!

I thought I would share a touch of truth with you and some things I battle.  Not always, just here and there and somehow it helps to let it all out.  I'm funny like that you know!

~ I love nutritious meals and for the most part, we have them. 
But...sometimes they have boxed cereal, candy, diet pop and fast food
~ I vacuum at least once a day and have to have clean floors to function properly
But...there are days, I really don't care if food particles, dirt or unidentified "crumbs"  have escaped beyond the kitchen and dining room
~ I try to clean under our appliances once a month
But...sometimes I forget until I notice sticky, gross things laying under them while searching for an escaped fast moving hot wheel
~ I despise yelling and HATE talking above a normal speaking range to my children
But...I lay in bed some nights, feeling guilty at the times I lost my patience and my children suffered
~ I fold MANY loads of laundry a day is really hard for me to find the time to put them away and before I know it, there can be 3-4 laundry baskets full of folded clothes waiting in the hall for me
~ I do not like TV for my kids
But...I have been known to stick movies, (especially lately), in the DVD player to keep them entertained for awhile
~ I love to get up early and spend time with God
But...lately I have given in to my flesh and slept longer and spent less time with Him
~ I desire to be submissive to my husband and have a meek and gentle spirit
But...boy do I battle that sometimes and realize how quick my tongue reacts
~ I use cloth diapers and love it
But...sometimes I get lazy and revert back to disposables for a few days
~ I LOVE having boys and they bring me soooo much joy, is it hard to understand their activity level and competitiveness at times!
~ I know God is going to provide for us and always has and I DO trust Him
But...I battle sometimes with worrying when my hubby will get a job and what the coming months will hold
~ I feel this baby move inside of me all time
But...I still worry everyday that something might happen to her
~ I am so thankful for my older children who have chipped in so much helping me in this last trimester
But...I can't wait until I can feel myself again and serve them!
~ I realize everyday how imperfect I am
But...I have a savior who lifts me up and loves me no matter how many times I fail!

For that, I am truly grateful!

Any "truth" you want to share would be welcomed!  Sometimes it's just nice to know you are not alone!



Robin said...

Yes! All so true. Sometimes I give up on reading other people's blogs because I feel very inadequate. Does seem like some have it ALL together and I definitely do not!!! Thanks for sharing.

Clanton Clan said...

I could echo each and every one of your thoughts. Truth is, whenever people seem like they are successfully juggling 100 balls in the air, there are likely 100 laying on the ground as well. That's the fun thing about can choose to write about and memorialize all the good stuff and forget about the 4 baskets of unfolded laundry sitting in the hallway. Ha! That's what I do anyways. :)

abba12 said...

Wait, people clean under their appliances other than when they are moving out??

I can mirror every one of your statments (perhaps on a smaller scale though), and I only have one child, a newborn! For me, I pour all my focus into one thing at a time, get it established and running smoothly, and then move to the next. By the time I've gone full circle, it's time to refocus and rework on the first thing again


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