Our lives in the past 4 months has changed dramatically. Some things I have shared and others I have not. I can tell you that I have a peace and really no anxiety about anything! Which, if you know me or have read my blog for very long, you know how miraculous that is! God has taught me to live one day at a time and even one MOMENT at a time! So with that being said, I thought I would give you a little update on what is and has been happening in our life.
Last October, when my husband came home to tell me he had lost his job, I felt like a Mack truck had hit me! We had been through it before but it is still a shock! I think I cried off and on for days. My hubby, for the most part was fine with the exception of feeling like a failure and that he had let us down. So most of my crying was behind closed doors so I did not bring him down. He worked very hard at finding another job. Went to people he knew and called around asking if anyone could use him. We finally came to the point where we realized it was in God's hands, not ours! Not to say we laid down and quit, just had to use a different approach. At the beginning of December, he even found a job, we thought. After a short time, he realized it was not something he would do for a long period of time and the pay could not sustain our large and growing family! He went to the person who hired him and was very honest with him and told him that if he thought it a waste of his time to train my husband for only a short period of time only to find another job and move on, he would understand but would continue to work there as long as he needed him. They decided mutually it was best for both parties to move on. So, we are sitting here towards the end of February with still not job. He has had two interviews with one company and we are supposed to hear from them later this week. That job would mean a move is in our near future! SCARY for all of us! The last time we moved, my children were all so young and really their lives did not change much. This would be a TOTALLY different story! My oldest has jobs, my other children have lots of involvement with music around our area and friends would be sooooo missed! But God will direct our path! He will share with us in His timing, His desire. Our ears, spirits and hearts are open to listen! We have realized as time goes on, the trials we go through are only meant to make us stronger! The time we have had together has been an adjustment! There is NOBODY on this earth I would rather be with than my husband but finding a way to adapt to our new normal has been interesting at times! We are waiting together and love having time to share our children in work and in play! I had felt guilty for a time, that I was enjoying our time together! I have since learned that I should appreciate this time and enjoy it! It is only for a season and I need to savor it.
On to my pregnancy. I have always had textbook case pregnancy's. No problems, complications or anything unexpected. Well, not this time! Everything was smooth sailing until I hit 29 weeks. I found out last Friday, I have Gestational Diabetes. I know it is not uncommon, but for me it is and it has thrown me for a loop! We have read everything you can possible read on it and the main concern is a big baby. Which I have anyway! So, in order to keep my blood sugar levels down, I will be on insulin injections, non-stress tests weekly, doctor appointments weekly, and ultrasounds every other week. Understand, I am one who thinks to much medical intervention is not good so my mind cannot quite wrap itself around this whole concept. WAY to much medical intervention in my opinion. However, I do know God gave us doctors to help us and it is not always a bad things to follow their advice. Just as I said yesterday on my blog, I need God to be so close to me, that I will know what His plan is. I will take one day at a time and do what He tells me to do.
We have had a winter full minor illnesses. It has been a REALLY long winter. We have taken lots of Vitamin D and drinking orange juice to try to keep ahead of things but when you have 13 people living and breathing each other in close quarters, illnesses are bound to happen. I am just thankful for strong immune systems! We did have a bout of beautiful unseasonably warm weather last week and that was wonderful! It got us out and running free for a few days! Maybe we got it all out of our systems before baby! That would be nice!
Summary:
- No job as of yet, but we are waiting on God for His timing
- Possibly a move is on our horizon
- baby is growing and moving great but causing quite a stir before she comes, lots of decisions to be made!
- We are so thankful for God's provision and continue to allow Him to be our daily source for all of your needs
More updates coming as they occur!
5 comments:
Thank you, SO MUCH, for sharing! I'll be praying for you. It's been a little while since I've had the chance to read your blog, so I'm catching up today.
My sweet husband was laid off in 4/09 from the best job he's ever had & has only been able to find an on-going temp job (which means it could end tomorrow) for 1/4 of what he made before...yep, at 75% pay cut! ALL of our savings are gone; instead of using that $$ to open Marmee's Pantry bulk food store after we graduated our youngest from our homeschool (in '09), & after having to turn in 1 of our cars (3 ppl, 2 cars), after our oldest DD thought she would help us by moving into her own apt, I had to get a job outside the home last year at a health food store. And, w/3 of us working & paying the bills, we're still nowhere close to his previous income.
He, too, has had a few really good interviews ~ he's only 49 & they seem to have all gone to younger men. NOW, he's had 2 good interviews w/a company about 300 miles away ~ I'm trying desperately to be positive about this & willing to go where the Lord will take us...but I don't want to move. Our girls will be here, my mom has dementia & will be here (which means less time spent w/her while she fades away), leaving our church...oh dear...trust, trust, TRUST!
I'll be praying for you, please remember us if the Lord lays us upon your heart.
Blessings from Ohio...Kim<><
I can understand what you're going through with the pregnancy. I went from a planned homebirth to an early induction and twice weekly doctor visits due to being diagnosed with cholestasis. It was not my ideal by any means!
But perhaps my experience can be an encouragment to you, suddenly thrown into the high risk catagory, with ultrasounds and tests and CTG scans and all sorts of things. I was 37 weeks with my first child, the doctors never expected induction to go well. According to them, best case scenario was I spend the night on cervadil before going on an oxytocin drip and have an epidural for the pain (apparently induction labour is much more painful than normal labour?) and the more likely scenario was a c-section. I was prepared for a long, painful labour and a body that wouldn't cope well with artificial oxytocin (my body is unusually sensitive to hormone changes and medications). I also was not going to be able to have my original midwife or birth in the birth center, the original compromise.
I show up to have the cervidil put in and my body isn't prepared at all, my cervix has done nothing on it's own despite our natural induction attempts the week before. They put it in and mild contractions begin immediately. I was told they wern't contractions, I wouldn't go into labour myself, and to take some painkillers and sleep.
Wake up in hospital the next morning, and the contractions are still there, and worsening. God was watching over us, because at midday that day I spontaniously broke my waters, throwing me into full labour immediately, and we had a baby girl just 6 hours later (a short enough time that, by the time they went to give me morphine as I had fought the epidural, she was crowning and I couldn't have it anymore.) He also took care of the risks cholestasis left, I had no clotting problems, did not hemorage, and delivered the placenta by myself before the decided 'deadline' for delivering it naturally in a high risk situation.
Just to prove it was all God, we discovered when she was delivered that there's no way she was only 37 weeks, she must have been much closer to 'term', so he kept her safe inside me despite the complication, and made it so she could remain within me longer than 37 weeks, which is when the doctors insisted she must come out by.
Even when you get thrown into the medical side of things, it's in Gods hands and it will happen however he wants it to. You'll be in my prayers.
Heather, I'm continuing to pray for you. It is so great to take each day as it comes and trust God..what peace and comfort is derived from that!!
That last comment was from me (Robin) under my dd's acct, lol:)
Hi Heather... don't know if you remember me. I commented awhile back during your last pregnancy. I am so joyful to hear you are now pregnant again with a baby girl! But my heart breaks to read of all the other trials you are going through.
"He has made everything beautiful in it's time." Ecc. 3:11
Praying for God's will for your beautiful family and that He will lift you up and sustain you all!
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